Loser

It has been raining for the past 3 days, all gloomy. =( Somehow, days like these are hard to tolerate as this is exactly how it feels like when we parted, oh well, maybe that day was all sunny and bright, but somehow, I was feeling so cold inside; the chillness in the air brought me back through the tunnel of time, again.
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I can still remember how much I used to love rainy days when i was little, then I started to develop my liking for torrential rain and then started to swear at rainy days as the hassle of brining out umbrella bothers me. It has been a cycle, as in a slight deviation from the PLC. It’s just that it never ends, but repeats over and over again. And as for now, I like days when it is either raining cats and dogs or when it hits 32 degrees.
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Strange isn’t it?
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Perhaps it is exactly how I am feeling right now.
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When it rains heavily, I have the options to just hide in my room, reminiscing about the past, recalling sweet memories, analysing as to why everything has to come to an end, wondering how will it be like if I didn’t sound so defensive, dreaming of dreams we once aimed for, and wished that I am able to turn back the time; or to play in the rain, letting everything to be washed away in split second, hoping that only good memories live on.
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I am not saying this because I am down but if it doesn’t stop drizzling, I am going mad, seriously. Days like these remind me of that moment and I feel like a loser. =(

p/s: started jogging again. =)

Singlehood

Yesterday, as night drew nearer to dawn, as I got so tired of rationalizing lecture notes, as the insomniac devil talked to me without pausing, I ended up rolling on my bed, sitting and floping back on the pillows in between. Reached for my phone and not knowing who to call or text. Thats how miserable singlehood can get. =(

my cheesetale (1)

About 2 decades ago, a mould of a little girl was brought to life. Though she wasnt one of those with big innocent pair of eyes, fair porcelain like complexion, almond shaped chin, blushed chubby check; deep down, what a blessing her Mum thought. Just as her mum was on maternity leave, taking good care of her newborn angel, on one fine evening, she cried so hard before her mum decided to put her to sleep on her lap. While she was deep in her sleep, her mum was having a slice of baked-to-perfection cheesecake. Crumbs and pieces of it fell and landed on her lips, she licked it with her tongue, pressed her lips together, and then falshed her mom a smile. That's when her cheesecakes craving starts. =)

*blueberry cheese, alexis*

Unusual

Ok, this is worrying now. I am getting more unusual. Even the word unusual is much preferred over unique now. Again, I did loads of thinking, so much so that I am starting to hate breaks. And just came to realize that I am unusual. Wth. Oh oh well, maybe not, for at least the fact that I still spend most of my time sitting on a comfortable couch, sipping coffee, having earphone glued to my eardrum, lappy switched on for no apparent purpose, magazine left laying on my lap, mind drifted so far away, all alone in a far corner of a cafe, looking all depressed but seriously happy deep down, is still valid. But then again, despite of all normal doings, I’ve somehow had developed weird (i.e. unique) habits/expressions/usage of words/ laugh since I am back at home. Like,

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#I am starting to overreact over minor occurrence.

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#I am starting to understand why people opt for two sticks instead of a fork to eat.

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#I didn’t question or complain or even mention about the combination of sushi and cheese, although I still hate the whole idea of mixing cheese with oriental/ japs foods.

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#I am more expressive than everrrr.

#I care lesser on what people see me as, seriously, I am not here to please everyone.

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#I am munching on Mister Potatoes again. =(
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#Take the hassle to change into sports attire and hit less than 50 strokes yesterday.

#I tried to speak in Mandarin. Believe it or not?! Wth.

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#I'm so used to saying : can also, eating still, no problem also.. which doesnt sound like english anymore. =(

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This is going to be weird... damn weird!

29 oct

=)
erm, erm...
Just feel like flashing a smile.
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One week almost gone.

It has been all good, well, up to this date.

I am so going to stay home,

watch movies, read novels, sleep and eat....

for the next 10 days. Wth.

P/s:

It tells something, it signifies hope, it lights up the paths for us, but never tell us which to take. It is not even fair to provide us with choices, cos you and I both dont know what we want. At times, I wish we allow intuition to guide us through, forget about whys, and leave the unanswerables behind. It's simple, really, I wish!

P/p/s: did mention something about 'soon', and it is really really going to be soon, but not so soon yet. =P

Holy

December 2007

Hong Kong

(cant really remember the name of this place cos' it's in Chinese)

I heart this pic!

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Swear that everyone was staring at us.
Erm, who says it's inappropriate?

As long as I got this shot, so shut up, you green-eyed monster! =P

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December 2008

Angkor wat, Cambodia

Didnt really notice the Buddha crafted on the stones till I see this pic. =P

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Kissing you, hmmm... =X

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June 2009

Borubudur Temple, Indonesia

Buddha, far far above.

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6 of us, soaring up high. =)))

October 2009

Kek Lok Si Temple, Penang

Usual penang trip: food, sleep, tennis, beach, chats...

But as for this time, dragged myself out of the duvet to visit the temple!
Amazing. =)

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Huiyan loves Liyan

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When I love (or forced, or whatever it is) to visit temples, I become holy. =X

Mum should be proud of me. =P

*****

Soon:

when mock's here

soon:
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Considering the very beautiful fact that I've fully adapted back to schooling life, with my brain that long ago had ceased working coming back to operation, I am now having my head bury in books 24/7. So much so that time to blog is better off utilise for books at such crucial time, the exam week!
Anyways, study time!
Exam ends tomorrow. Update soon, Cheers~

break..time...

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sleep and

eat and

study.

>_<

P/s: Saw a couple having a beach wedding. =)